genre bending

I want to be more creative, I sometimes feel like I have to dumb myself down for people around me to get my writing. Maybe instead me having to dumb myself down, people should smart themselves up. Ha... that's a great argument with really bad grammar. I'm a fool when it comes to the English language, but I have billions of ideas. I want to paint the alley ways with words and metaphors. I want the reader to swim in my thoughts. I don't want to offer up kool-aid when my guests need milk. Does anyone understand? No, no one even reads. Even if they did they'd write me off as a pretentious ass.