defense

I think projection is the most common defense mechanism. I was just looking through a lot of older blogs and I noticed I often tear myself apart just to know how to tear someone else apart. It's funny, my best weapon is my own faults. The more you understand yourself the more you understand "your enemies", why you're creating art, and if this is all just one big bandaide for a much bigger problem. I have lots of problems but I think it's safe to say I've explored them all thoroughly and music is a small bandaide for my problems. It helps, but for me to get rid of the shit storm in my closet I'd need two hundred grand in theropy to deal. It'd be like shoveling shit at a farm with five hundred horses with a teaspoon.