PREEEEtentious

sometimes striving for better work can just come off as a selfish struggle. I mean I write music for a combination of reasons: for the kids who need decent bands to relate to; To keep what i consider decent music alive and breathing; to extract all my passive aggressive behavior into a constructive form; and generally not to feel so insignificant. So it's half selfish and half artistic.

wellllllll, then I started to think about it, most artists are into art for selfish reasons. they might not display it daily but really, why else would you sit around trying to think of a way to creatively say you're like everyone else and you want to share that with the world. Just the fact that someone would think they are blessed enough to be able to entertain a crowd with their thoughts and feelings is pretty conceded. the more and more I think about it, the more I agree with the pissy Charles inside.

BUUUTTTT, then you have moments where you play a show and everyone there is having a great time, yelling their heads off, and then you know why.. we're literally creating a piece of heaven on earth. This sense of community and warmth between everyone. We're all sweating, screaming, and having fun. No one feels out of place. You just feel like you belong, you're accepted, someone understands you, and that makes going back to a hostile home worth it. You know it doesn't matter if you're a fatty, smell weird, act strange, or generally can't get along with the general human population, cause when you're here.. you know the bands, they're your friends, you know what they're about cause you know their lyrics, and they don't have to technically relate to you as an individual.. they have your music and your band to know, be friends with, to listen to...


maybe I'm an idiot, but that's the way I feel